I'm not sure what the hell made me say this.

I'm finally at the point where I don't want to hid the fact that I love that I am a little sissy cum loving whore. Thanks for my ex girlfriend who helped me with my destiny to be a sissy girl. The first time I had anything happen was one day I was asleep in my room. I was dressed up slutty as always since I was around 10 years old. My mom knew that I wanted to be a girl so much. She said I made a better girl than a boy and I was having a great time with the outfits she got enough clothes where I could barely see the boys clothes I hated to wear. But I was 13 or 14 and I had a great friend that we had a party at my house because of my mom working at night and father was gone before I was 5. One day I think my mom left the door unlocked been my house was way back in the 200 acre's of land, that nobody comes over. I was asleep and dressed up and everything is slutty and had my 6 inch stilleto heels on at the time. I'm waking up when he was blowing his huge load of cum all over my face. Apparently he was jacking off and I have no idea how long he was there. Before that I had seen his cock a lot and he seen mine. He had a beautiful 8 inch cock and we compared with mine looks like a baby dick. I have no problem to say I have a very tiny sissy clit around 2 inches hard. I'm loving it so I can wear size small thongs and don't see shit. Makes me feel special and like a real girl. Well he was 16 and I was 12 or 13. I had never told him I would be a better fit for a friend to drop to my knees and beg for a opportunity for a real mans cock in my mouth. I had been practicing for a few years before with no problems deepthroat 10 inch dildos. I knew if I had a chance I was going to be making him come back for more, but he had no idea that I wanted to. When I was waking up with him shooting a huge load I don't know why but I said that was a total waste of cum. He said what I thought was another option. I didn't care about me and my desire to suck his cock. I said you couldn't make it in my mouth. He just looks at me and says that from now on I was going to be his cock sucking bitch, and I was wiping the load of his cum into my mouth. I have not even said anything close to what I said to him. I got out of bed and I was looking sexy as hell because I had a boyish figure that was more like a girls body. I'm walking to the living room with my 6 inch stilleto heels on and we start watching a porno with just absolutely sexy girls sucking 4 or more cocks at once. I'm getting horny watching the girls and I was wondering why I was not the one in the videos. I started rubbing my tiny sissy clitty as I never masturbate like a guy. I am a girl inside the wrong body. He is looking at me doing that and ask what the hell I was doing. I said I feel, act, and dress like a slut so why not just go all out and I said hell I don't care after you blew your load on my face. He said yeah but I wiped it into my mouth. He said he was going to have his dick sucked and I was informed that I do it willingly or by forced to. I don't know why but that had me the hornier than I ever had before. It's the way he said forced, so I said I will not be sucking his cock. Then he grabs my hand and shoulder and pushed me to my knees. I was short and 90 lbs and he was taller than me by a foot and I could not take control of him. He was to strong for me. I wanted to be forced anyways but I am not telling him that. He is holding my shoulder down so I couldn't get away, while he's pulling out that beautiful cock I have been wanting so much before. Even my mom knew that I would eventually be his little sissy cock sucking slut. As she was always told me that I would be able to pleasure men and not women and I agreed with her. She was always buying the clothes, stilleto heels and the l big dildos for me. So I was on my knees and he told me to begin begging for the opportunity to serve a real man and not a little bitch like me. So I didn't want to upset a real man when I got forced to my knees. I looked at him and said do you want me to call you Daddy and he thought it was perfect for me to call him that. I was there for whatever he needs so after begging for a couple of minutes. He said open that greedy cock sucking mouth and get to start sucking. I was told that I better not fuck it up with my teeth scr****g ect. He is watching the video rock hard and I went to town and he said damn you know what the hell I was doing. I'm sucking his cock craving for the second he was going to blow his huge load again and I said don't tell me when. I said just grab the back of my head and start throat fucking my mouth and I didn't say anything after that and around a minute I guess he did exactly what I was needing to know my place from now on and his hands on my head and he fucked my throat like I was wanting but needed More than anything to do what I have to do to make sure that he knows that I am not going to say anything when he needs a place to cum. And I wish I could have it right now because he drilled into my throat and when he came down my throat he had my head shoved down to his balls and didn't let go right away. He looked down at me band only said who's the cock suck bitch... I said I am Daddy and I will be happy if you could please give me the opportunity again and I need to stay on my knees until you are done with your need for me. He just walked out of the house while I was still on my knees and wanted more and I was swallowing my cum since I started rubbing my clitty as I thought it had to be done because I was the little sissy girl not him or anyone else I knew. If you like this and wanted to know what happened after that day, let me know. I am not trying to try to get it all done in one post. But I don't want to hid the fact that I am attracted to big beautiful cut cocks. I am not attracted to men just a big cock that I will be happy when I get permission to suck a real mans cock. I was told what to do when he might not want to do anything else like that. He said I was probably a faggot. I said I am a girl not a boy. I didn't even wear boys clothes to school after I had a closet full of girls clothes and hardly any boys clothes left. I threw my underwear and socks and shoes in the trash. The school part is something that I was called me the dirty names I love to hear when I am on my knees. But I have no problem telling you even the school story and the rest of the friends story