Small cock realization
I think I have always known that I have a small cock. It's not something I ever would admit to myself when I was a teen. Even up to the age around 40 years old. But I definitely behaved like a guy who knew he had a small package.
I was always very shy in a change room. I always covered myself up. Always. Even when I would change my clothes - I would turn around, or do it really fast. I didn't want anyone to see my little dick.
I played on several sports teams - youth through adult. I couldn't help but notice that most guys had cocks that actually hung down. Same with their balls. When they walked, their stuff would sway back and forth. It's not cool to stare, but I could tell from a quick glance. My cock was always turtled in. It didn't sway when I walked. The head would peep out from my pubes. My ball sack never hung down. Everything was all tight and tiny. I was always very embarrassed in a change room. On top of that, I was always worried about getting a hard on. I think it was a turn on for me - seeing that most guys had a bigger package than me. As a young horny guy I would never "admit it" - but come on - why would I behave like that?
As a teen I remember reading a penthouse letter. It said that the average size cock was 6 inches. I got a ruler and slid it on top of my cock, pushing as hard as I could to get to 6 inches. I was going to make sure I was at least average! I made myself believe I was!
Girls would comment on how small my hands were. There was a saying "the size of the hands reflect the size of the cock". The girls never said that - but I knew the saying.
We never compared cocks back when I was growing up. So I decided to use porn mags. If I saw a picture in a porn magazine where the girl was holding a hard cock I would try to figure out the size of that cock. Since my hand was similar in size to a girl, I could extrapolate the size and compare with my dick. I would compare how much cock was visible when the girl wrapped her hand around the shaft of the cock. There was always a lot of cock visible. When I wrapped my hand the same way around my little cock, just the head was exposed.
One time a girl asked me if I was in. She said she didn't feel me. When I think of that now - it makes me want to cum. I could have had a lot of fun with that. But back then I wanted to believe I had a man's cock, not a little sissy dink.
When I was in my thirties, I remember, a couple of times, I was with a girl. We were getting naked and I pulled down my underwear, proudly displaying my hard cock. Sheepishly, she said, "well it's ok, it's not the size of the waves, it's the motion in the ocean". She kind of trailed off when she said it. Like she realized, a little too late, that she was telling me I had a small cock.
The big realization came later on in life - my forties. It happened when I was using a toilet paper roll to masturbate. I love the smooth sensation on the shaft. It very lightly stimulates the ridge of my head. I don't need to move it very much. Since my balls never hang down and are usually inside me, I pushed hard on the toilet roll to make sure the head was not inside the roll. I didn't want any wetness in the roll. At this point I noticed that the ridge of my head barely stuck out. I thought this would be a perfect way to measure the size of my cock! I found several different cock measurement sites. It seemed like average cock size was 5.5 inches. The average range was around 5.25" - 5.75". Somehow in my head, over the last many years, I figured I was 5.5" long. So I must be average, right? With my cock still inside that toilet paper roll, I could get a really accurate measurement of my cock. With my balls contracted inside me, sliding the tube as far as it would go, my head stuck out .75". So how long was that paper tube? My cock was throbbing in anticipation. I measured the tube and found it was just around 4 inches! My cock was only 4.75" long. I looked more closely at the statistics to see where I fell in the size chart. 92% of men have a bigger cock than me. In a room of 10 guys, I probably have the smallest cock.
Knowing that 90% of guys have a bigger cock than me reinforced my beta male attitude, why I was submissive and had such a strong foot fetish. I was so turned on, my little cock immediately released in my hand. I squeezed and milked the shaft of my little cock extracting all the content of my little balls.
After I was spent, I sat in my chair, holding my cum in my hand, humiliated by my less than average penis. My penis stirred as I realized the perfect way to reinforce my beta status. I raised my hand and slurped up every little bit of my gooey load, licking between my fingers to get every drop.
I was always very shy in a change room. I always covered myself up. Always. Even when I would change my clothes - I would turn around, or do it really fast. I didn't want anyone to see my little dick.
I played on several sports teams - youth through adult. I couldn't help but notice that most guys had cocks that actually hung down. Same with their balls. When they walked, their stuff would sway back and forth. It's not cool to stare, but I could tell from a quick glance. My cock was always turtled in. It didn't sway when I walked. The head would peep out from my pubes. My ball sack never hung down. Everything was all tight and tiny. I was always very embarrassed in a change room. On top of that, I was always worried about getting a hard on. I think it was a turn on for me - seeing that most guys had a bigger package than me. As a young horny guy I would never "admit it" - but come on - why would I behave like that?
As a teen I remember reading a penthouse letter. It said that the average size cock was 6 inches. I got a ruler and slid it on top of my cock, pushing as hard as I could to get to 6 inches. I was going to make sure I was at least average! I made myself believe I was!
Girls would comment on how small my hands were. There was a saying "the size of the hands reflect the size of the cock". The girls never said that - but I knew the saying.
We never compared cocks back when I was growing up. So I decided to use porn mags. If I saw a picture in a porn magazine where the girl was holding a hard cock I would try to figure out the size of that cock. Since my hand was similar in size to a girl, I could extrapolate the size and compare with my dick. I would compare how much cock was visible when the girl wrapped her hand around the shaft of the cock. There was always a lot of cock visible. When I wrapped my hand the same way around my little cock, just the head was exposed.
One time a girl asked me if I was in. She said she didn't feel me. When I think of that now - it makes me want to cum. I could have had a lot of fun with that. But back then I wanted to believe I had a man's cock, not a little sissy dink.
When I was in my thirties, I remember, a couple of times, I was with a girl. We were getting naked and I pulled down my underwear, proudly displaying my hard cock. Sheepishly, she said, "well it's ok, it's not the size of the waves, it's the motion in the ocean". She kind of trailed off when she said it. Like she realized, a little too late, that she was telling me I had a small cock.
The big realization came later on in life - my forties. It happened when I was using a toilet paper roll to masturbate. I love the smooth sensation on the shaft. It very lightly stimulates the ridge of my head. I don't need to move it very much. Since my balls never hang down and are usually inside me, I pushed hard on the toilet roll to make sure the head was not inside the roll. I didn't want any wetness in the roll. At this point I noticed that the ridge of my head barely stuck out. I thought this would be a perfect way to measure the size of my cock! I found several different cock measurement sites. It seemed like average cock size was 5.5 inches. The average range was around 5.25" - 5.75". Somehow in my head, over the last many years, I figured I was 5.5" long. So I must be average, right? With my cock still inside that toilet paper roll, I could get a really accurate measurement of my cock. With my balls contracted inside me, sliding the tube as far as it would go, my head stuck out .75". So how long was that paper tube? My cock was throbbing in anticipation. I measured the tube and found it was just around 4 inches! My cock was only 4.75" long. I looked more closely at the statistics to see where I fell in the size chart. 92% of men have a bigger cock than me. In a room of 10 guys, I probably have the smallest cock.
Knowing that 90% of guys have a bigger cock than me reinforced my beta male attitude, why I was submissive and had such a strong foot fetish. I was so turned on, my little cock immediately released in my hand. I squeezed and milked the shaft of my little cock extracting all the content of my little balls.
After I was spent, I sat in my chair, holding my cum in my hand, humiliated by my less than average penis. My penis stirred as I realized the perfect way to reinforce my beta status. I raised my hand and slurped up every little bit of my gooey load, licking between my fingers to get every drop.
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